We were not submitted today. That made my heart hurt. Every day I think about our kiddo, when we are doing things together as a family, especially sitting down for dinner. That empty chair is mocking me. The clothes we have picked are still on hangers, with tags (in case they don't fit). The kid doesn't even have shoes yet because we don't know what size to get!
I told my hubby that it is driving me insane that we are here, waiting, longing, loving this kiddo from so far away. The hubs astutely pointed out that our kiddo doesn't even know. I think he wanted to make me feel better, but it didn't, it just broke my heart more. I have loved this kiddo in this picture I have for 2 years, and for 3 months have known I would be the lucky mama to bring this little one home. And this child, who is so so wanted and loved, does not even know it yet! Pray with me for God to prepare that little heart for the overwhelming abundance of love!
Our facilitator told me that we WILL be submitted on May 30th. She has an appointment for 10am on May 30th. A friend of mine told me that she has known of facilitators pushing and fighting in line to get those dossiers submitted. That somehow made me feel better, that there are good people willing to fight for these kids! Another friend told me that the current time between submission and the date to go look at our child's file is about 40 days.
God spoke to me in that little statement. 40 days. He can do a lot with 40 days. He flooded the earth, cleansing it of corruption and evil in 40 days. Jesus was tempted in the desert for 40 days. Jesus was on earth for 40 days after His crucifixion before He ascended back into Heaven. 40 is a number that symbolizes a period of trial or probation that ends in revival and renewal. It certainly will be trying to wait these last 40 days before meeting the little love I have been looking at in photos for the past 2 years!
40 days is not really a long time (though it does seem like it to my heart!), and we are not even close to fully funded. We have not gotten the support we thought we would from the adoption community we are a part of. It has been very disheartening and frustrating. We have enough money left in savings for either the facilitator fee OR the airline tickets, but not both. We'd like to raise money for both so if something comes up we have a little wiggle room. We need about $10K to do that.
So, in the next 40 days, let see how many $40 donations we can receive! Even one $40 a day for 40 days is $1600, which will cover most of one plane ticket! We need six $40 donations a day to reach our goal. I KNOW God can do this!! If you cannot give $40, that's okay --give $5, find 3 friends who can give $10 each to have a group donation of $40! Every little bit counts! And please SHARE!!
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